One Hundred and Fifty Five

Letting go of every single dream
I lay each one down at Your feet
Every moment of my wandering
Never changes what You see

I tried to win this war, I confess
My hands are weary, Lord, I need Your rest
Mighty warrior, King of the fight
No matter what I face, You’re by my side

When You don’t move the mountains
I’m needing You to move
When you don’t part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When you don’t give the answers
As I cry out to You–
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You

Truth is, You know what tomorrow brings
There’s not a day ahead You have not seen
So in all things be my life and breath
I want what You want, Lord, and nothing less

You are my strength and comfort
You are my steady hand
You are my firm foundation
The rock on which I stand
Your ways are always higher
Your plans are always good
There’s not a place that I go
You’ve not already stood

I will trust in You
(lyrics by Lauren Daigle)

I think over these last few very difficult years, I have lost so much of my trust in Him. The truth is, though, I’ve never needed to rest in His goodness more. But I think circumstances have rubbed me so raw, so relentlessly, that sometimes the promises I know are true, ring false anyway, and the hope I have in His very nature, slips through my fingers…

And yet, no matter where I am in the journey, He is unchanging. And I WILL trust Him. I will choose it, I will choose it with every fiber of my being, until I FEEL it. And then I will rest in His goodness again. Oh please, Jesus!

Thank You, Loving, Mighty, Beautiful Father, for being trustworthy, for being Good, and for being so patient with me. More than patient, in fact. For being HERE with me, wherever I am, whatever veil of tears I walk through. You take Yourself through it with me. You amaze me in every respect. I love You. Please, may I be ALL Yours? Hopes, dreams, trust and all?

Thank You for being You…